Saturday, October 31, 2009

All Hallows' Eve

Forget trick or treating, forget costumes, no parties or scary movies. Remember the people you love, but lost. My sweet, funny, little grandmother passed away on February 6th 2009. She is greatly missed and forever remembered.

Sunday, October 25, 2009


Saturday, October 24, 2009

I feel like a 'shroom

Mushrooms, originally uploaded by DitteBB.

... stuck in the middle, peeking out towards the sunlight.

What a dramatic intro. But I guess it reflects my week spot on. It's been a rough week, but luckily that must mean that next week can only get better. Right? This is an attempt at a more positive outlook and I think it's a darn fine attempt to be honest. The way things are going these days it would be far easier to moan and whine, but I am truly trying to be positive. No sh*t.

Something has dawned on me. I've been very closed about my feelings regarding an issue that affects me greatly; infertility. There are so many women, who go day after day building up resentment towards other women, who obtain what an infertile woman wants the most: a healthy pregnancy. This is true. Resentment is very easily the quickest solution to hurt feelings. But there's another solution: disregard. I wouldn't characterize myself as a cold or careless person, but I would say that in some areas I've become prone to disregard people. It's perfectly simple really - no one cares to have their imperfections rubbed in their faces. If you're overweight you don't want to be treated any differently than others. Same goes for race, sexual orientation and so forth. You know what? Infertile people do not appreciate being treated as such. So pity is the worst way to meet someone who's struggling with infertility. Don't pity me - talk to me. It's as simple as that.

Friday, October 23, 2009


Aulin and Basse in Pålsjö Skog, originally uploaded by DitteBB.


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Four years and still going strong...

Aulin and me, originally uploaded by DitteBB.

Today is a special day for Johan and me. It's exactly four years ago today that we met for the first time. It was a nervous, insecure and exciting day when we first met at Helsingør train station on October 21st 2005 around noon. We'd been planning our weekend together for a long time, but I don't think we'd ever dared to hope for what it turned into. Four years later we're still going strong, living together and making plans for our future. I'm not a religious person, but if I were I'd thank my Heavens for Johan. I love him more than words can say.

Much love forever.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Sunday blues

A lonely tree, originally uploaded by DitteBB.

Today was my last day off. It's amazing how quickly a week passes by. I've enjoyed having the time off to just unwind, but it's a little nerving to feel how I automatically tense up as the day progresses. Oh well, nothing to do but face the week, I guess.

We went out to visit my in-laws today. It was a nice and relaxing visit, which ended with us going for a long walk in Råådalen. Basse needed a good long walk. He's sleeping on the sofa now, so I think we succeeded in getting him tired.

Now it's time for America's Next Top Model on TV3. Enjoy your sunday!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Gimme the stick!

Gimme the stick!, originally uploaded by DitteBB.

Today we went out to Bruce's Skog with Basse to let him run free in the dog enclosure. I'm not keen on letting him run around without a leash, but by taking him to places like Bruce's Skog, we can just close a huge gate behind us and let him run along without worrying about him running away or getting in a fight with other dogs. I, as always, brought my camera along and snapped a few pics of the little one enjoying himself with no leash to hold him back. His expression in this photo is as priceless as the moments we get to share with him.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

100th post!

I laughed so hard my stomach hurt when I saw this picture. Just wanted to share with you guys.

Inspired by a blog I follow, PCOS SOS. I decided to do this little questionnaire. Pass it along if you feel like it. I consider it passed along by posting it on my blog. Wonder if that's cheating? Oh well, please forgive me.

1. You Can Only Use One Word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

The Fun Part
1. Where is your cell phone? Here
2. Your hair? Brown
3. Your mother? Wonderful
4. Your father? Kind
5. Your favorite food? Italian
6. Your dream last night? Positive
7. Your favorite drink? Pepsi
8. Your dream/goal? Family
9. What room are you in? Sittingroom
10. Your hobby? Crafts
11. Your fear? Sickness
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Home
13. Where were you last night? Helsingborg
14. Something that you aren’t? Alone
15. Muffins? Blueberry
16. Wish list item? Laptop
17. Where did you grow up? Lystrup
18. Last thing you did? Scratch
19. What are you wearing? Clothes
20. Your TV? On
21. Your pets? Fish
22. Friends? Forever
23. Your life? Rollercoaster
24. Your mood? Positive
25. Missing someone? Family
26. Vehicle? Ford
27. Something you’re not wearing? Socks
28. Your favorite store? -s!?
29. Your favorite color? Pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? Now
31. Last time you cried? Earlier
32. Your best friend? Johan
33. One place that I go to over and over? Helsingør
34. One person who emails me regularly? Father
35. Favorite place to eat? Several

If I were to give a blog award, Marianne would get my vote. She writes interesting posts and she's fantastic at updating. I wish I could learn from her.

Today I post my 100th post. Not many considering I've had the blog for years. Guess I should better myself. But would I truly be me if I bettered myself? (Yes, I am trying to squirm out of a deal).

Monday, October 5, 2009

Autumn came around...

I realise it's been ages since my last blog. I guess you could say I'm feeling rather uninspired these days. Everything seems to be drumming by in it's own monotone rythm and there isn't really much to tell. We just got back from a weekend at my parents' house. We were attending my cousin's 30th birthday party on Saturday. It was a huge party with live music, good food, free alcohol (which meant a few obligatory drunken fools) and just generally a good time. It was nice to see everybody again.

I'm having a rough time these days. It might be getting rather trivial listening to my moaning and whining, but in all fairness this is my blog and if I want to complain, I'll do it. Even though I should be grateful for all I have, there are things that bug me. I'm not going to bore you with the details, but basically I'm just fed up and we've been contemplating some life changing decisions.

The bright spot in my life is that autumn is here. I love the colours, the general good feeling I get when the temperature goes down, the darker nights and mornings. Johan and I met in October 2005 and every time October comes around the butterflies start fluttering in my stomach. October, autumn and love. *sigh*

I could probably go on and on about lots of things, but to be honest I'd rather end on a high note. No need to spoil the mood.

Much love.