Tuesday, December 4, 2007

... suddenly Christmas sneaks up on you

It's been ages since I last wrote a blog. Only reason I have time now is because I've been home sick from work for a week. It's quite ironic that I got the flu-shot as to prevent myself from needing longer periods of time off work due to illness and then my body decides to get pneumonia - and not just with one infected lung, but two. I'm stocking up on my vitamin C by eating kiwis and I should be back to work tomorrow, which is awesome. Can't stand my own company much longer.

Suddenly Christmas came sneaking. Not that I didn't see it coming. The stores have 'only' been decorated and ready with Christmas ornaments since - well - September? October? But still it amazes me how time flies. It's almost 2008 already. Huge changes have occured for me in 2007 and all very welcome changes. 2008 will be just as grand for me, so am really in good spirits. Everything is so calm and relaxed about my life now. No drama, no worries, no anxiety. It's as if all the cleaning up I did in my life is finally paying off and I'm really happy and content. Being content isn't a God given. In my opinion nothing is, but let's leave religion out of this one. Being content is something you obtain by working hard for it, by going through struggles and crisises that no one except you can work your way through. And going through it bitching, blameshooting and whining just doesn't make any sense. Who can change your fortunes except yourself? Everything we do, any action, starts with ourselves.

In 16 days (not that I'm counting) Johan and me are off to Århus for Christmas. It'll be our first Christmas together. My sister and her boyfriend will be home from Wales as well, so the troop will be complete. It's going to be so awesome, I can't even describe it. I haven't seen my sister since July so it'll be great to catch up and be our usual silly selves. Just being with my family is something I'm looking forward to. Moving away from them has been damn hard for me, but there is no doubt in my mind that it's been the best choice I've ever made for myself. Sometimes we need distance to realise how well off we are. Everything needs to be put into perspective and only then are we able to truly appriciate everything we have. And for me that is what Christmas is all about. Being thankful for my family and friends and showing them my appriciation.

Suddenly Christmas sneaks up on you and showers you with sentimental waves. At least it ain't the Christmas Blues this year, but a tiny core of happiness glowing in my stomach like a candle in the dark.